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in giving we receive
A very hard picture to post. I was alarmed out of bed by thunder rumbling...more rain in an area already flooding...but none so much as the tears that will flood my day in a few minutes. I need to wake PJ girl up and break the news that a much anticipate fun day at the zoo will most likely be cancelled...unless we have a miracle. She is my sunshine, now I need to try and be hers...help!
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to "Destination Disintegration" at The Altered Page (great name Seth)
Thought you might enjoy a peek of what I have been brewing up...
....good witches really enjoy their science experiments...
....and crows
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accepting flaws...
the house: dirty...love lacked...neglected....ignored...flawed
my legs: dirty...love lacked....neglected....ignored...flawed
the house: strong...solid...good bones...has stood through storms without flinching
my legs: strong...solid...good bones...still standing through storms without flinching
time for kicking @!
embracing, accepting,fixing,repairing because they both deserve it.
shadows mask what my legs have endured....years of standing 12 hour days in the cage...keeping me upright even when swollen to unrecognizable shape during pregnancy...intense workout when I knew no other way to throw out stress...mountain biking daily before we moved to the land of 70 mile an hour trucking roads...getting me out of bed for 2 am feedings...chasing my dreams even when I wanted to stay in bed...rocking out with friends...meeting...greeting...walking...kicking...dancing even when the music stopped...slowing the pace down to take a picture of the surroundings.
never once did they complain...tears fall every spring when I see girls with pretty sandals and then my ankles...they look beaten up...they are beaten up....by me...but never once did they complain. they are strong...strong enough to jump in front of a camera and knock me to the ground in weakness of facing the truth. the truth of how shallow it is to consider a part of one's self ugly and unacceptable.
i have a gene that makes me prone to cluster spider veins and they do look beaten up. My my aunt has this and my grandmother did as well. it is part of who i am.
i met someone, an absolutely flawless plastic surgeon who said he could "fix me" and asked me why i waited so long. he said i won't be perfect but i will like the results. we were both wrong...no...he won't fix me, that comes from me. he is not as flawless as i thought...because i WILL be perfect....perfectly acceptable to me.
this post is to me...to me self!
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Inspiration can come from just about anywhere. An impulse came via some enchanting Flickr friends recently via some harmless conjuration. It is finally a nice day today and Mr. Honey is working...PJ girl is off to camp...I was bored and decided to be a bit of a witch...and then the mailman got the surprise of his life being greeted by a witch in July. Why oh why did I need a package today. Five minutes in this get-up he comes up the driveway and knocks on the door. Incidentally I have not opened the package yet either!
The moral of the story is... watch out when brewing up trouble...you might get more than you ask for but it sure is fun...and...anything in the name of bubbling brew Bench Monday!
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I have not been feeling very "bloggy" lately. I am here and there but nowhere much if that makes sense. My mind is tired, my google reader just said I had 900 or so unread posts...mind you there are some design blogs that post 20 a day and I just keep on there to lurk at. No worries, I do not stay in a funk for long. In my life there always seems to be something or someone that is so special it wakes me up a little....brings a little smile to my face and sweetens my day.
Yesterday, after a long day at work, I came home to surprise mail. I love surprise mail. Suki had just mentioned she would be sending something my way, but It really did not register for a few days. This fabulous art piece made it to my mailbox before my chance to email her back did. Of course gratitude overflows for the kindness...but the theme...bee still my heart! Suki made this way before she even knew I was into bees for a "spelling bee, quilting bee and honey bee theme. The picture, even with a great camera does not do it justice...some sunshine would help! Well to Suki, you brightened my day and then some. I have already told Suki I am planning on an "art wall" in my kitchen and this will be absolutely perfect!
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this is "post and run"... If you click on the picture above it will take you to Flickr with all my notes as well as others about the layers, etc. I am off to the cage again today and think my dining room needs the rest! More pictures soon...need to show you the fireplace for paint color suggestions!!
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Happy Friday...maybe tonight after being in the cage for 12 I will come home and show pictures of what I have been doing to this poor house of mine!
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I have been putting this post off for a while now. Inspired by Leah at Creative Every Day at the end of June, I took this picture when she announced July's theme of "Self". I have done a self portrait painting before...this is harder. A self portrait photo. Me...black and white...in front of my own eyes is scarier than putting it before yours. I have adjusted to jumping in front of the camera in the name of fun for Bench Monday on Flickr but that is all in the name of fun. I have chosen this theme of "Self" to really take a deeper look at my Self. I commit to do one self portrait a week for 52 weeks as many of you are already doing. I have no clue what it is I plan on learning but it is about time I learn it. Today...by taking the moment to actually show the world this picture, I am learning trust. I am learning that when I do reach out...there is light...there is something worth reaching for...and there is the ability to reach. I also know deep inside I am reaching for inspiration. I have not felt like painting much but yearn to paint. The soul of an artist never rests...the hunger is never satiated.
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August 1st is fast approaching....say it ain't so! Will someone please slow this summer down already. August first will also be an art event like none other I have ever participated in. It is with great honor to be part of Seth Apter's "DisCo crew". You may remember my other two posts for the Disintegration Collaboration, well on August first I will reveal some art created with the goodies that disintegrated throughout late winter and a long wet spring. Yes...I still make art!!! The camera just whines and cries until I pick it up and shoot 200 pictures a day and by then my art time is in the art of answering a 6 year olds questions!
Stay tuned!
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almost didn't make it! Worked all day and now my support system is exchanging shifts. Support hose OFF/Sam Adams Summer Ale...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ON! Sweet dreams!
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